Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k dedi\u011fin \u00c7anakkale\u2019de bir \u2026<\/p>\n
Kimlik<\/p>\n
Uzun boylu, yap\u0131l\u0131 ve yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bir erkekti. T\u0131pta Uzmanl\u0131k S\u0131nav\u0131\u2019n\u0131 hen\u00fcz atlam\u0131\u015f ve ailesine bile s\u00f6ylemeden bir geziye \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kendine verdi\u011fi arma\u011fan olarak. \u00d6\u011frenciyken de yapard\u0131 b\u00f6yle geziler. Haritadan ve \u00e7o\u011fu kez ad\u0131n\u0131 be\u011fenerek se\u00e7ti\u011fi yerlere gider gelirdi hafta sonlar\u0131. Salihli ve Turgutlu\u2019ya bu \u015fekilde gitmi\u015fti, Do\u011fu Beyaz\u0131t\u2019a da. \u00dclkenin en bat\u0131 ucu diye Baba Burnu\u2019na gitmi\u015f ve oradaki eski s\u00fcrg\u00fcn ve mahkumlar\u0131n \u015fimdiki torunlar\u0131yla iyi ahbapl\u0131klar kurmu\u015f, ho\u015f vakitler ge\u00e7irmi\u015fti Midilli semalar\u0131ndaki mehtap alt\u0131nda kafa \u00e7ekerek, \u015fark\u0131lar s\u00f6yleyerek. Bodrum neyse de Halikarnas ad\u0131 hemen hi\u00e7 bilinmezken, o zaman orada Per\u015fembe Pazar\u0131\u2019n\u0131n kuruldu\u011fu sokakta bir Rum madam\u0131n pansiyonunda kalm\u0131\u015f, kap\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcndeki pazardan al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f yapm\u0131\u015f, Albert Einstein\u2019\u0131n \u201cSosyal ve Dini G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015flerim\u201d adl\u0131 kitab\u0131n\u0131 madam\u0131n \u00f6\u011fretmen k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n odas\u0131ndaki kitapl\u0131kta bulmu\u015f okumu\u015ftu. Bertrand Russell\u2019\u0131n \u201cFelsefenin Temel Problemi\u201dni de. Arada bir gelirdi akl\u0131na, \u201c\u015eimdi ne yap\u0131yor acaba o k\u0131z?\u201d diye. Halikarnas Bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131s\u0131\u2019n\u0131n Ay\u015fe\u2019sini de (nineydi o zamanlar) o g\u00fcnlerde tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. D\u00fcnya\u2019n\u0131n Yedi Harikas\u0131 i\u00e7inde say\u0131lan kral mezar\u0131n\u0131n sular alt\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015f halini g\u00f6r\u00fcnce g\u00f6zleri ya\u015farm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bodrum kalabal\u0131kla\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Ka\u015f\u2019a ge\u00e7mi\u015f; \u00dc\u00e7 A\u011f\u0131z k\u00f6y\u00fcnden Veli Day\u0131 ile, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 ile, lokantan\u0131n a\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 ile has dostluklar kurmu\u015ftu. Biraz da mesle\u011fi gere\u011fi, insan canl\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131, s\u0131cak kanl\u0131yd\u0131. O kadar ki, Veli Day\u0131 bir evlek yer veresi olmu\u015ftu kendi bah\u00e7esinden, s\u0131rf kom\u015fu olsunlar diye. K\u0131\u015f\u0131n Ankara\u2019ya gider, i\u015fini g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcr, yaz\u0131n gelir Veli Day\u0131\u2019ya kom\u015fuluk yapard\u0131. Birlikte kuzu ile bal\u0131k yerlerdi yine ve a\u015f\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n tembihine uyup asla limon s\u0131kmazlard\u0131 ete. Pansiyonda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 odan\u0131n penceresinden, arka bah\u00e7edeki topra\u011fa yar\u0131 g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc antik s\u00fctuna elini uzatsa dokunurdu. Ya\u011fmur ya\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ertesi bir sabah kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 t\u0131klatan \u00e7ocuklar, tepeye alt\u0131n sikke toplamaya gittiklerini s\u00f6yledi\u011finde, cesaret edip kat\u0131lamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 onlara. Hemen kar\u015f\u0131daki bat\u0131k kent Simena\u2019n\u0131n da bir tek bek\u00e7isi vard\u0131 o zamanlar, o bek\u00e7inin de bir d\u00fcrb\u00fcn\u00fc ile bir d\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc\u2026
\nGel zaman git zaman, G\u00fcney\u2019de Arsus\u2019tan ad\u0131m ad\u0131m Osmaniye, Tarsus, Adana vesaire taa Dikili\u2019ye dek hemen her yeri gezmi\u015f dola\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 alt\u0131 y\u0131ll\u0131k t\u0131p \u00f6\u011frencili\u011fi s\u0131ras\u0131nda. Zaten Band\u0131rma\u2019l\u0131yd\u0131 ve kuzey k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 Zonguldak\u2019a dek iyi bilirdi. Buralardan herhangi bir yere ait herhangi bir foto\u011fraf g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir olas\u0131l\u0131kla hemen tan\u0131y\u0131p s\u00f6yleyecek kadar hem de\u2026 \u0130\u015fte \u015fimdi, zincirin eksik halkas\u0131 da tamamlanacakt\u0131 bu geziyle\u2026
\n\u201cBat\u0131\u2019n\u0131n Hakkari\u2019si\u201d dedi\u011fi \u00c7anakkale\u2019ye gitmek i\u00e7in karar verince, \u00f6yle uzun uzad\u0131ya bir inceleme ara\u015ft\u0131rma yapmad\u0131 \u00f6nceden. Hem sevmezdi \u00f6yle pek planl\u0131 programl\u0131 gezileri, hem de zaten y\u0131llard\u0131r birikmi\u015f pek \u00e7ok nedeni vard\u0131. Her \u015feyden \u00f6nce amcas\u0131, daha do\u011frusu babas\u0131n\u0131n amcas\u0131 \u00c7anakkale\u2019de yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 askerli\u011fini ve her bayram anlat\u0131rd\u0131 uzun uzun an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131; t\u00fcfe\u011finin topunun seri numaras\u0131na varana dek. Dolay\u0131s\u0131yla, bu gezide Gelibolu bay\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131n tepelerinin dola\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmazd\u0131. Son zamanlarda ayn\u0131 adla \u00e7evrilen Hollywood filmi y\u00fcz\u00fcnden, Truva\u2019ya da gidilecekti mecburen. Bozcaada\u2019yla G\u00f6k\u00e7eada\u2019y\u0131 da ekledin mi, bir haftal\u0131k ka\u00e7amaktan ne kal\u0131r ki geriye?…
\n\u0130lk molada, cep telefonuyla mesaj yollad\u0131 ailesine: \u201cBir haftal\u0131k tatile \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. STOP Telefonum a\u00e7\u0131k olacak. STOP Kapal\u0131ysa da mesaj g\u00f6nderin. STOP Hepinizi \u015fimdiden \u00f6zledim. STOP\u201d \u015een, esprili, kendiyle bar\u0131\u015f\u0131k bir adamd\u0131, vesselam\u2026
\nSabah \u00c7anakkale\u2019ye inince hi\u00e7 vakit kaybetmedi; bir otele yerle\u015fti, iki lokma kahvalt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yap\u0131p motorla kar\u015f\u0131ya Kilitbahir\u2019e ge\u00e7ti. G\u00fcn\u00fcbirli\u011fine bir taksi kiralay\u0131p her yan\u0131 dola\u015ft\u0131 ak\u015fama dek. B\u00fcy\u00fck \u015eehitlik Kitabesi\u2019nde \u0130stanbul T\u0131bbiye\u2019sinin t\u00fcm \u00f6\u011frencilerinin \u015fehit oldu\u011funu ve bu y\u00fczden o y\u0131l okulun a\u00e7\u0131lamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 okuyunca h\u00fcng\u00fcr h\u00fcng\u00fcr a\u011flad\u0131. T\u00fcm \u015fehitlerin ruhuna Fatiha okudu. Sava\u015f foto\u011fraflar\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda, kan\u0131 dondu. Kahramanl\u0131k \u00f6yk\u00fclerini okuduk\u00e7a, hay\u0131r gururlanmad\u0131 as\u0131l olarak t\u00fcm sava\u015flara lanet etti. Hele havada \u00e7arp\u0131\u015f\u0131p birbirine kaynam\u0131\u015f mermi say\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7oklu\u011funu fark etti\u011finde\u2026 Vefat etmi\u015f yabanc\u0131 askerler i\u00e7in Mustafa Kemal\u2019in s\u00f6yledi\u011fi \u015fu s\u00f6zleri okudu\u011funda gururland\u0131: \u201cOnlar art\u0131k bizim evlatlar\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r.\u201d Conk Bay\u0131r\u0131\u2019nda dola\u015ft\u0131, Mustafa Kemal\u2019in cep saati ve \u015farapnel \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc yeniden okudu, Anzac koyunda y\u00fczd\u00fc. \u00d6\u011flen yeme\u011fi yiyebilece\u011fi bir yer bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in a\u00e7 kald\u0131. Sava\u015ftakilerden daha fazla \u015fehidin, sonraki salg\u0131n hastal\u0131klar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden kay\u0131p verildi\u011fini \u00f6\u011frenince kahroldu. Siperliklerin \u00e7\u00f6p po\u015fetleriyle dolu oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcnce de. G\u00fcne\u015f batmadan d\u00f6nd\u00fc, otelde bir \u00e7orba i\u00e7ip dar att\u0131 kendini yata\u011fa. Ad\u0131m atacak hali kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u2026
\nSabah uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bile hemen kalkamad\u0131. Mahmurluktan. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kar\u015f\u0131da beliren pembe duvarlara anlam veremedi, odadaki e\u015fyalara da; e\u015fyalar\u0131n oda i\u00e7indeki yerlerini de garipsedi. Neresiydi? Bu aptal e\u015fyalar, duvar\u2026 Neredeydi? \u00c7evreye bak\u0131nd\u0131. Ho\u015f bir rahatl\u0131k, hafiflik hissetti; \u00e7i\u00e7ekli \u00e7ar\u015faflarla bezeli olmak g\u00fczeldi. V\u00fccuduna bak\u0131nd\u0131, \u00e7ar\u015faf alt\u0131ndaki k\u0131vr\u0131mlar\u0131na, kabart\u0131lar\u0131na. Kalkmak gelmedi i\u00e7inden, sald\u0131 kendini, yay\u0131ld\u0131 yata\u011fa. Tavan kartonpiyeliydi, ortas\u0131 da avizeli, minik zarif\u2026 G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler u\u00e7u\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. G\u00f6zleri \u00f6n\u00fcnden dans ederek ge\u00e7iyordu askerler, dans ederek sava\u015farak birbiriyle. Baledeki gibi. harmandal\u0131 zeybek oynar gibi, bir dizi havada b\u00fck\u00fck dizi dizi askerler s\u00fcng\u00fc sapl\u0131yordu kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki hayali d\u00fc\u015fmanlara. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir operet, bale yahut film mi izlemi\u015fti acaba? Yoksa avizeden rengarenk sa\u00e7\u0131lan g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0131 akla getiriyordu? Ki, birden an\u0131msad\u0131, r\u00fcyada g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc. Olurdu b\u00f6yle baz\u0131 baz\u0131. Mesela bir seferinde, \u0130stanbul A\u00e7\u0131khava Sar\u0131k M\u00fczesi\u2019nde bir Azeri sirkinin g\u00f6sterisini izlemi\u015fti r\u00fcyas\u0131nda. Filin \u00fcst\u00fcndeki ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adamla d\u00fcnya g\u00fczeli esmer bir kad\u0131n, filin ve sirkin di\u011fer hayvanlar\u0131n\u0131n hareketiyle uyumlu Azerice \u015fark\u0131lar, aryalar s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti, Hac\u0131bekov\u2019un \u201cAr\u015f\u0131n Mal Alan\u201d operetindekilere benzeyen. Ger\u00e7i \u015fimdi, az \u00f6nceki r\u00fcyas\u0131ndaki m\u00fczi\u011fi, \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n s\u00f6zlerini hat\u0131rlayam\u0131yordu ama gayet emindi \u015fark\u0131 ve m\u00fczik de oldu\u011fundan. Hayli geni\u015f bir m\u00fczik koleksiyonu vard\u0131 plak ve CD alb\u00fcmlerinden olu\u015fan, evde \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken hep onlar\u0131 dinlerdi, i\u015fyerinde de kulakl\u0131ktan\u2026
\nG\u00fcl\u00fcmsemekte oldu\u011funu alg\u0131lad\u0131 birden. En \u00e7ok bu halini be\u011fenirdi; kendinden memnun, kendini seven.
\nKar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 aynadaki g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcler gibi, \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131 bu ho\u015fnutluk, katlana katlana. Buru\u015fmu\u015f \u00e7ar\u015faflar\u0131 toparlad\u0131, top top yap\u0131p f\u0131rlatt\u0131 \u00f6te yana. Z\u0131plad\u0131 aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131, banyoya girdi. Du\u015f ald\u0131, t\u0131ra\u015f oldu. B\u00f6yle zamanlarda hep yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, ensesini \u015fap \u015faplad\u0131, yana\u011f\u0131ndan makas ald\u0131, aynaya bakarak g\u00f6z k\u0131rpt\u0131 kendine. \u00c7\u0131kt\u0131. Giyindi\u2026
\nKahvalt\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131nda telefon etti; babas\u0131yla, karde\u015fleriyle, ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131yla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Hepsini \u00e7ok \u00e7ok \u00f6pt\u00fc. Ard\u0131ndan, garaj yak\u0131nd\u0131 zaten; iki ad\u0131m sonra, bir k\u00f6y minib\u00fcs\u00fcne bindi, Truva sapa\u011f\u0131nda indi, harabelere dek y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Severdi b\u00f6ylesi tehlikesiz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck maceralar\u0131. Tahta At\u2019\u0131 seyretti, binalarda sergilenen buluntular\u0131 gezdi, kapal\u0131 devre televizyon yay\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 izledi. Kaz\u0131 \u00e7ukurlar\u0131na bakarken t\u00fcyleri diken diken oldu: tarih g\u00f6zle g\u00f6r\u00fclebilir haldeydi, kat kat\u2026 Topra\u011fa sapl\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck metal tabelalara yazm\u0131\u015flard\u0131, her kat\u0131n nereden nereye dek oldu\u011fu, tarihleriyle birlikte. Her y\u00fczy\u0131l bir iki santimetre etmekteydi. \u0130\u015fte zaman, santimetreyle \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fclebilmekteydi. Binlerce, on binlerce insan\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 etti\u011fi her \u015fey oradayd\u0131, toprak alt\u0131nda. G\u00fczel Helen\u2019den bir iz var m\u0131yd\u0131 acaba oralarda bir yerlerde, peki ya Agamemnon\u2019dan, hele topu\u011fu yaral\u0131 A\u015fil\u2019den, Paris\u2019den?
\nHi\u00e7birinden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey kalmam\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131yd\u0131 geriye, adlar\u0131 ve \u00f6yk\u00fcleri d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda. Ah \u015fu evrenin ruhu dil, insan\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck icad\u0131! Dil olmasayd\u0131, onlar\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 etti\u011fi hi\u00e7bir \u015feyden de, di\u011ferlerinden de, ge\u00e7mi\u015fteki hi\u00e7bir \u015feyden haberdar olunamazd\u0131 \u015fimdi. Ne Helen bilinirdi, ne Agamemnon, ne A\u015fil, ne \u00f6tekiler. Peki \u00e7ok mu \u00f6nemli? Kimine g\u00f6re bir a\u015fk hikayesi, kimine g\u00f6re Ege Denizi\u2019ndeki bal\u0131klar\u0131 payla\u015famamak y\u00fcz\u00fcnden bir sava\u015f \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 iki yakada binlerce insan \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc yine. \u00dc\u00e7 be\u015f bal\u0131k eksik yahut fazla yesen ne olur, e\u015fini ka\u00e7\u0131rsalar ne olur? Ne olmu\u015ftu sonunda? Her\u015fey, herkes e\u015fitlenmi\u015fti i\u015fte. Geriye kalansa; insan\u0131n, maddenin, evrenin ruhuydu sadece, yani d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclen konu\u015fulan her\u015fey, dil! Mesle\u011fi nedeniyle de bilirdi, insanlar\u0131n ruhu oldu\u011funu. Ka\u00e7 kez g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, bu y\u00fczden inan\u0131rd\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya. \u0130nsan\u0131n maddesi \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fc, ama ruhu ya\u015fard\u0131 ba\u015fka insanlar\u0131n anlatt\u0131klar\u0131nda. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fle ilgili hi\u00e7 kimse hi\u00e7bir \u015fey anlatmasa, ruh da olmazd\u0131\u2026
\nTopraktan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kartm\u0131\u015f bir solucan g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Belki \u00e7oktand\u0131r oradayd\u0131 da hen\u00fcz fark etmi\u015fti. Yok can\u0131m, daha \u00f6nce \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f olsayd\u0131, mutlaka g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc o kapkaral\u0131k i\u00e7indeki k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r pembeli\u011fi. Bakt\u0131, ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 kattan, ka\u00e7\u0131nc\u0131 y\u00fczy\u0131ldan oldu\u011funa. Sonra g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi bir anl\u0131k safl\u0131\u011f\u0131na. Sanki solucanlar, y\u00fcr\u00fcmez dola\u015fmazlard\u0131 toprak alt\u0131nda. Uzansa eri\u015febilir miydi acaba? Denedi. Bir iki kar\u0131\u015f eksik geldi. Atlad\u0131 \u00e7ukura indi. Z\u0131plad\u0131, solucan\u0131 yakalad\u0131, \u00e7ekti \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Hayli de uzun boyluydu, \u00e7ek \u00e7ek bitmedi.
\nEskiden de i\u011frenmez, oynard\u0131 solucanlarla, \u00e7ocukken, evlerinin bah\u00e7esinde. Ya\u011fmurlu g\u00fcnler ertesinde. \u201c\u2014Solucan kesmek, hayvana eziyet midir anne?\u201d \u201c\u2014Eziyettir, evlad\u0131m.\u201d \u201c\u2014Ama ben kesince \u00f6lmediler ki, iki tane oldular. Onlar\u0131 da kesince, d\u00f6rt tane oldular. \u00d6lmediler, y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcler\u2026\u201d \u201c\u2014B\u00fcy\u00fcy\u00fcnce yoksa doktor mu olucan?\u201d Olmu\u015ftu i\u015fte, ama annesi g\u00f6remedi\u2026
\nKald\u0131rd\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bakt\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne, mavi bir \u015ferit halindeydi yukar\u0131s\u0131. Ondan sonraki g\u00fcnlerde, siyah pantolon \u00fcst\u00fcne mavi g\u00f6mlek giymeye karar verdi o an\u0131n hat\u0131ras\u0131na. \u00dcniversitedeki, hastanedeki arkada\u015flar\u0131 yine dalga ge\u00e7eceklerdi, ge\u00e7erlerdi, hep ge\u00e7mi\u015flerdi b\u00f6ylesi ani de\u011fi\u015fiklikler sonras\u0131nda. Omuz silkti, ge\u00e7sinlerdi. Zaten bu d\u00fcnyada kim kimi anlayabilmi\u015f ki. \u201c\u2014De\u011fil mi bay Odiseyus?\u201d Cebindeki ka\u011f\u0131t mendil paketini \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131; mendilleri cebine, paketin i\u00e7ine de biraz toprak koydu, bay Odiseyus\u2019u da topra\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ine. Bir solucan\u0131 olmu\u015ftu art\u0131k, hem de Truva\u2019n\u0131n yerlisi\u2026 Yan\u0131nda g\u00f6t\u00fcrecekti onu, Ankara\u2019ya. Herkes kedi k\u00f6pek besler, \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fe bakar; o bir solucana bak\u0131p besleyecekti, b\u00fcy\u00fccek bir cam kavanoza koyaca\u011f\u0131 toprak i\u00e7inde. Bakal\u0131m karde\u015fleri, hele ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131 ne diyecekti. Solucanlar hakk\u0131nda pek bir bilgisi yoktu, ama okur \u00f6\u011frenirdi ansiklopedilerden. Meslekda\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda da vard\u0131r nas\u0131l olsa, solucanlar\u0131, huylar\u0131n\u0131 suylar\u0131n\u0131 bilen. Al bir gariplik daha. Arkada\u015flar\u0131 bir hafta konu\u015furlar art\u0131k \u00e7ay kahve molalar\u0131nda, kap\u0131 arkalar\u0131nda f\u0131s\u0131r f\u0131s\u0131r. \u201cS\u0131navlar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden bu hale geldi.\u201d derler\u2026 Jelatin paketin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya burdu. Yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca da, bir ip, tel yahut yap\u0131\u015fkan bant par\u00e7as\u0131 falan bulup, i\u015fi \u015fansa b\u0131rakmamal\u0131; paketin a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 iyice kapatmal\u0131, yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmal\u0131yd\u0131. Bay Odiseyus ka\u00e7mamal\u0131yd\u0131. G\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc \u00fczerine, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131, bakt\u0131. Bulutlar\u0131n aras\u0131 hayli kalabal\u0131kt\u0131\u2026
\nArkadaki g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc parlakl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda pek se\u00e7ilmiyordu ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar. Sadece iki \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015fi g\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u00fcyd\u00fc ve camlar\u0131 parl\u0131yordu\u2026
\n\u201c\u2014Ne yap\u0131yorsunuz burada?\u201d dedi bir kad\u0131n. Ama kim? Belli olmad\u0131. O y\u00fczden kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermedi adam. Az sonra yeniden bir dalgalanma oldu yukar\u0131da; jandarma geldi\u2026
\nBir tahta merdiven kayd\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131, adam \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Kimlik tespiti yap\u0131ld\u0131, ifadeler al\u0131nd\u0131.
\n\u0130fadeler s\u0131ras\u0131nda a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 ki, az \u00f6nceki sorular\u0131 soran kad\u0131n m\u00fcze m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcyd\u00fc, \u00c7anakkale M\u00fczesi M\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc, daha do\u011frusu vekili, asaleti onaylanmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 hen\u00fcz. Durumu \u00f6zetle aktard\u0131 aste\u011fmene; bir er de notlar ald\u0131 el yaz\u0131s\u0131yla k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kapl\u0131 bir deftere\u2026 Zab\u0131t, her \u015fey iyice anla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonra en sonda yaz\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 ki, d\u00fczeltmek zorunda kal\u0131nmas\u0131n\u2026
\n\u201c\u2014Ka\u011f\u0131t mendilim d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc de paketi almaya indim.\u201d dedi adam.
\n\u201c\u2014\u0130yi de, nas\u0131l \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131n\u0131z oradan?\u201d dedi kad\u0131n.
\n\u201c\u2014Bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015ftim.\u201d dedi adam, zay\u0131f bir sesle ve sesinden, konu\u015fmas\u0131ndan belliydi ki kibar, k\u00fclt\u00fcrl\u00fc birisiydi. \u201c\u2014Sizin gibiler y\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00e7al\u0131\u015fam\u0131yoruz burada\u201d dedi kad\u0131n. Adam ne diyece\u011fini, bu s\u00f6zlere ne kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k verece\u011fini bilemedi. \u0130htimaldir, as\u0131l rezalet az sonra \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131; \u00fcst ba\u015f aramas\u0131 yap\u0131lacak ve adam\u0131n cebindeki toprak bulunacakt\u0131. Topra\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde ne oldu\u011fu da ara\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lacak ve b\u00fcy\u00fck rezalet kopacakt\u0131. Ondan sonra da ay\u0131kla pirincin ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131klayabilirsen. Cebindeki \u015fi\u015fkinli\u011fi hissettik\u00e7e kahroldu adam, boncuk boncuk ter bo\u015fand\u0131\u2026
\nYaz\u0131c\u0131 er, elinde kimlik komutana bakt\u0131. Komutan da selam verir gibi bir ba\u015f i\u015faretiyle yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Er, kimli\u011fi uzatt\u0131 komutana; komutan bir kimli\u011fe, bir adama bakt\u0131. Sonra, m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcn yan\u0131na gitti, kimli\u011fi g\u00f6sterdi. M\u00fcd\u00fcr pek ald\u0131rmad\u0131\u2026 \u201c\u2014Su\u00e7\u00fcst\u00fc Mahkemesi\u2019ne mi sevk edeceksiniz?\u201d dedi. Aste\u011fmen de \u201c\u2014Bu gece bizde nezarette kal\u0131r, yar\u0131n sabah sevk ederiz.\u201d dedi. D\u00f6rt asker ilerledi, ikisi yanlara ge\u00e7ti, biri arkaya biri de \u00f6ne. Kelep\u00e7eye mi vuracaklard\u0131 yoksa?!…
\nAskerler o denli yak\u0131n duruyorlard\u0131 ki, silahlar\u0131n metal ve plastik kokular\u0131 bile geliyordu adam\u0131n burnuna. Belli ki, yepyeniydi hepsi. Hi\u00e7 kullan\u0131lmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Silahlara \u015f\u00f6yle bir bakt\u0131 g\u00f6z ucuyla. P\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131 hepsi, fabrikadan yeni \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f gibi. Ger\u00e7ek bir ka\u00e7ak\u00e7\u0131 olsa, bunu fark edip hemen ka\u00e7ard\u0131 \u015fimdi. Ni\u00e7in b\u00f6yle yap\u0131yorlard\u0131 acaba? Hi\u00e7 mi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyorlard\u0131 bunun fark edilece\u011fini? S\u00f6ylese miydi acaba? Kendisine belki inan\u0131rlard\u0131 o zaman. Bunu fark etmi\u015f gibi, \u201c\u2014S\u00f6yleyece\u011finiz son bir s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz var m\u0131?\u201d dedi m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u2019an\u0131m. Adam a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131, vazge\u00e7ti. Ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 daha fazla buland\u0131rman\u0131n alemi yoktu. \u201c\u2014Yok.\u201d dedi, zor duyulur bir sesle. Ne s\u00f6yleyebilirdi ki?…
\n\u201c\u2014Serbestsiniz o halde.\u201d dedi m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u2019an\u0131m, \u201c\u015eikayet\u00e7i de\u011filiz. Bir solucan y\u00fcz\u00fcnden sizi daha fazla \u00fczmeyelim.\u201d \u00c7evredeki herkes gev\u015fedi, g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. Adam\u0131n yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndaki erler de uzakla\u015ft\u0131. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 defter kapat\u0131ld\u0131, aste\u011fmen kimli\u011fi uzatt\u0131. Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu o \u00e7ukurlarda. Olanlar\u0131n hepsini de arkeologlar bulup \u00e7\u0131kartm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 zaten. Yine de d\u00fczenli olarak detekt\u00f6rlerle tar\u0131yorlard\u0131 haftada bir. \u201c\u2014Ama solucanlara s\u00f6z ge\u00e7iremiyoruz\u2026\u201d dedi m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u2019an\u0131m. (Do\u011frusu ya, biraz da k\u0131k\u0131rdad\u0131 bu arada.) \u201cSizin gibi tarih merakl\u0131s\u0131 ayd\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131z atlay\u0131veriyor \u00e7ukura, solucan almak i\u00e7in. \u0130\u015fimizi g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc b\u0131rak\u0131p u\u011fra\u015fmak zorunda kal\u0131yoruz b\u00f6yle.\u201d
\nJandarma minib\u00fcs\u00fc tozu dumana katarak uzakla\u015ft\u0131. Sonra, \u00e7ay ikram ettiler adama \u0130dare Binas\u0131\u2019nda, \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f kelime de sohbet ettiler, tarihten t\u0131pdan konu\u015ftular. Ayr\u0131l\u0131k vakti geldi\u011finde, asfalta dek g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler asistanlardan birinin \u00f6zel otosuyla\u2026
\nErtesi g\u00fcn Bozcaada\u2019ya gitti hekim, sonraki g\u00fcn de G\u00f6k\u00e7eada\u2019ya. Bol bol \u015farap i\u00e7ti bal\u0131kla, uygun yerlerde denize girdi y\u00fczd\u00fc. Hafta sonu da d\u00f6nd\u00fc Ankara\u2019ya. Bay Odiseyus\u2019u g\u00f6t\u00fcrmedi yan\u0131nda, Truva\u2019dan ayr\u0131lmadan b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ayn\u0131 kaz\u0131 \u00e7ukuruna\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k dedi\u011fin \u00c7anakkale\u2019de bir \u2026 Kimlik Uzun boylu, yap\u0131l\u0131 ve yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bir erkekti. T\u0131pta Uzmanl\u0131k S\u0131nav\u0131\u2019n\u0131 hen\u00fcz atlam\u0131\u015f ve ailesine bile s\u00f6ylemeden bir geziye \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kendine verdi\u011fi arma\u011fan olarak. \u00d6\u011frenciyken de yapard\u0131 b\u00f6yle geziler. Haritadan ve \u00e7o\u011fu kez ad\u0131n\u0131 be\u011fenerek se\u00e7ti\u011fi yerlere gider gelirdi hafta sonlar\u0131. Salihli ve Turgutlu\u2019ya bu \u015fekilde gitmi\u015fti, Do\u011fu Beyaz\u0131t\u2019a da. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1425,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-324","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-genel"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/324","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1425"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=324"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/324\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=324"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=324"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=324"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}