Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k dedi\u011fin \u00c7anakkale\u2019de bir \u2026<\/p>\n
G\u00f6mlek<\/p>\n
Hayli yap\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. K\u0131saca boyluydu ve omuzlar\u0131 neredeyse boyu kadar geni\u015fti. Su Alt\u0131 Taarruz timinde g\u00f6revliydi, yahut asl\u0131nda Su Alt\u0131 Savunma timinde ve \u00e7evresine \u00f6yle diyerek hava at\u0131yordu. Belki de s\u0131radan bir askeri dalg\u0131\u00e7t\u0131 sadece. Her neyse\u2026
\n\u0130lk g\u00f6rev yeri Mersin\u2019di. Mersin\u2019den gelmi\u015fti \u00c7anakkale\u2019ye. Orada evlenmi\u015f ve orada bo\u015fanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131; bir \u00e7ocu\u011fuyla. \u00d6yle anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, herkese, maa\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 nafaka olarak \u00f6dedi\u011fini s\u00f6ylerdi. \u0130\u015fte sonra, kafa dinlemek i\u00e7in uzak bir yere tayin istemi\u015f, \u0130stanbul yahut G\u00f6lc\u00fck umarken \u00c7anakkale \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f k\u0131smetine.
\nBir keresinde motoru bozulan bir tekneyi, suya atlay\u0131p iterek k\u0131y\u0131ya getirmi\u015fti. Ger\u00e7i tekne uzakta de\u011fil, Subay Orduevi\u2019nin hemencecik \u00f6n\u00fcnde demirliydi ve kim olsa can\u0131n\u0131 di\u015fine takar, t\u00fcm kordon boyuna nam olsun \u015fan olsun diye ayn\u0131 i\u015fi yapard\u0131. Yapmas\u0131na herkes yapard\u0131 belki, ama bir tek o yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve bu y\u00fczden t\u00fcm \u00c7anakkale\u2019ye de\u011filse bile, o g\u00fcn kordonda bulunanlar aras\u0131nda nam salm\u0131\u015f, \u015f\u00f6hret kazanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.
\nGel gelelim bu t\u00fcr olaylar her g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor ki. Bu y\u00fczden \u00c7anakkale gibi kasaba irisi bir yerde can\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131yor de\u011filmi\u015f do\u011frusu, s\u0131k\u0131l\u0131yormu\u015f. Hele g\u00fcnl\u00fck dal\u0131\u015f talimleri de olmasa; var ya, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131dan patlamamak m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011filmi\u015f.
\nHayli \u00e7apk\u0131nd\u0131 da kerata; liseli \u00fcniversiteli gen\u00e7 k\u0131zlar, asistanlar, bek\u00e2r dul \u00f6\u011fretmenler, arkada\u015f e\u015fleri hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015fmezdi dilinden. \u00c7ok ge\u00e7meden \u00e2\u015f\u0131k oldu ama\u2026 Hem de s\u0131r\u0131ls\u0131klam derler ya, ondan da beter. Her ak\u015fam mesaiden kaytar\u0131p erken \u00e7\u0131k, ko\u015fa ko\u015fa git, \u00e7i\u00e7ek\u00e7iden bir d\u00fczine k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fcl al; oradan yine ko\u015fa ko\u015fa git G\u00fcmr\u00fck Muhafaza\u2019n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde dimdik dikil, mesai bitimine dek haz\u2019rolda bekle. T\u00fcm sahil boyu erk\u00e2n\u0131n\u0131n, bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n, kahvecilerin, simit\u00e7isinden tombalac\u0131s\u0131na dek t\u00fcm seyyar sat\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131n dilindeydi.
\nNeyse ki kad\u0131n \u00e7abuk tav olmu\u015ftu, birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra, ak\u015fam yeme\u011fe \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131lar. Yalova Restoran tadil edilmekteydi o s\u0131ralar. Ama \u00fcst kat\u0131n\u0131, o ak\u015fama \u00f6zel biraz derleyip toparlayarak o tek masan\u0131n \u015ferefine servise a\u00e7t\u0131lar. Mum \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yenen o ilk ak\u015fam yeme\u011finden sonra da\u2026 Her neyse.
\nKad\u0131n da duldu. Ortaokuldan liseye (o zamanlar \u00fc\u00e7 y\u0131ll\u0131k ortaokullar vard\u0131) o y\u0131l ge\u00e7ecek olan o\u011fluyla birlikte ya\u015f\u0131yordu. Uzunca zamand\u0131r hem de. \u0130\u015fin tuhaf\u0131, kad\u0131n da Mersinli\u2019ydi ve evdeki huzursuzluk y\u00fcz\u00fcnden, gizlice tayinini istemi\u015f ve bu bahaneyle, (zengin diye biraz da bask\u0131yla evlendirildi\u011fi) \u00e7ift\u00e7i olan e\u015fini terk etmi\u015fti. Adam\u0131n da \u00e7iftini \u00e7ubu\u011funu, narenciye bah\u00e7elerini b\u0131rak\u0131p kad\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fecek hali yoktu do\u011frusu. Hemen bo\u015fanma davas\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f ve kad\u0131n\u0131n kat\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ilk duru\u015fmada tek celsede bo\u015fan\u0131vermi\u015f. Ay\u0131 dolmadan da, yan ba\u011f\u0131n sahibinin k\u0131z\u0131yla k\u0131ym\u0131\u015f nik\u00e2h\u0131. Ger\u00e7i, e\u015flerin her ikisinin de kat\u0131l\u0131p mahkemede bizzat bo\u015fanma iste\u011fini belirtmeleri gerekiyormu\u015f, kad\u0131n temyize ba\u015fvurmay\u0131nca bo\u015fanma karar\u0131 kesinlik kazanm\u0131\u015f.
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar, bizim SAS yahut SALT veyahut en az\u0131ndan askeri dalg\u0131\u00e7 kahraman\u0131m\u0131za bak\u0131l\u0131rsa, gayet hayrl\u0131 i\u015faretlerdi ve bu i\u015fin sonu iyiye varacakt\u0131. \u0130lkbahar boyunca, \u00f6yle idi ger\u00e7ekten. Kahraman\u0131m\u0131z, kad\u0131n\u0131n evine ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131 ilk i\u015f olarak. Ne de olsa, ortaokulu bitirip liseye ge\u00e7mek \u00fczere ve b\u0131y\u0131klar\u0131 \u00e7oktand\u0131r terlemeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f olan delikanl\u0131n\u0131n bir babaya ihtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131 her \u015feyden \u00f6nce. Tek t\u00fck zay\u0131f not ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 derslerle ilgili olarak, gidip m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcnden \u00f6\u011fretmenlerine dek l\u00fczumlu herkesle konu\u015farak, karneye zay\u0131f gelmesini engellemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Be\u015fte d\u00f6rt oran\u0131nda ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 da oldu. Bu durum (yeni) baba ve (yeni) o\u011ful aras\u0131nda s\u0131cak ili\u015fkilerin do\u011fmas\u0131na yol a\u00e7t\u0131 elbet. O\u011flan da annesi de gurur duydu, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri kabard\u0131. L\u00e2kin, bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan kahvecisine, simit\u00e7isinden tombalac\u0131s\u0131na dek sahil boyu erk\u00e2n\u0131 hay\u0131fland\u0131, \u00e7\u0131k \u00e7\u0131kland\u0131 durdu: Sen kendi \u00f6z evlad\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015fver, git ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n o\u011fluna babal\u0131k et. G\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u015fey de\u011fildi\u2026
\n\u0130\u015fte ne olduysa, k\u0131sac\u0131k ilkbahar\u0131n bir iki haftada bitip birden bire yaza girilmesiyle oldu. Kim bilir, belki de kordon boyu esnaf\u0131n\u0131n hayr duas\u0131n\u0131n al\u0131nmam\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131ndand\u0131: Haziran\u2019\u0131n ilk haftas\u0131nda ayr\u0131ld\u0131lar. Bir gece yar\u0131s\u0131, bizim kahraman gerisin geri evine daha do\u011frusu lojman\u0131na ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131 e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131.
\nKad\u0131n\u0131n anlatt\u0131klar\u0131na bak\u0131l\u0131rsa, kad\u0131n hakl\u0131yd\u0131. Hem de sonuna kadar. Adam\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc zaten d\u0131\u015far\u0131dayd\u0131. Adam, yani bizim kahraman, bir s\u00fcredir mesaiden kaytar\u0131p erken \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen kad\u0131n\u0131 i\u015f \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131 almaya yahut do\u011frudan eve de\u011fil, taa kar\u015f\u0131 k\u0131y\u0131daki Barbaros Tesisleri\u2019nde denize girmeye gidiyordu. Belli ki, bulmu\u015ftu yine bir liseli, yahut bir ba\u015f\u00e7avu\u015f k\u0131z\u0131, veyahut ne bilsindi i\u015fte. Onun pe\u015fini mi kovalayacakt\u0131 bir de \u015fu k\u0131sac\u0131k \u00f6m\u00fcrde hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi dert tasa edecek hali yoktu. Olsayd\u0131 zaten, ilk kocas\u0131n\u0131 terk etmezdi\u2026
\nYine de mutedil olmal\u0131. Her \u015feyin asl\u0131n\u0131 astar\u0131n\u0131 bir g\u00fczelce \u00f6\u011frenmeden b\u00f6yle ezbere konu\u015fmamak l\u00e2z\u0131md\u0131. Keskin sirke k\u00fcp\u00fcne zarard\u0131, \u00f6fkeyle kalkan zararla otururdu ve benzer ne kadar Atas\u00f6z\u00fc varsa s\u00f6ylendi kad\u0131na, nasihatlar \u00f6\u011f\u00fctler verildi. Ne m\u00e2lum, belki de gizli bir g\u00f6rev verilmi\u015fti ve o y\u00fczden gidiyordu adam Barbaros Tesisleri\u2019ne. \u201c\u2014Ona m\u0131 gizli g\u00f6rev!? P\u00f6h!… Ba\u015f\u00e7avu\u015fun e\u015fe\u011fini bile teslim etmezler ayol.\u201d diye kendini savunurdu kad\u0131n.
\n\u0130\u015fin asl\u0131 da astar\u0131 da hayli farkl\u0131yd\u0131, bir gece ve bir i\u00e7ki masas\u0131nda ve sadece bir kereli\u011fine anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re adam bir g\u00fcn arkada\u015flar\u0131ndan kopmamak maksad\u0131yla ve tamamen bir rastlant\u0131 sonucu olarak onlara kat\u0131larak gitmi\u015fti Barbaros Tesisleri\u2019ne. Onlar, \u201c\u2014Komutan\u0131 atlat\u0131rs\u0131n ama, yengeden izin alamazs\u0131n. \u00c7atal y\u00fcrek l\u00e2z\u0131m o\u011flum.\u201d demi\u015fler, bu s\u00f6zlerin alt\u0131nda kal\u0131p matara olmaktan, rezil olmaktansa; hatundan papara yemek evlad\u0131r diye kat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 arkada\u015flar\u0131na felekten bir ak\u015fam hadi bilemedin, bir gece \u00e7almak maksad\u0131yla. Hem de \u00f6yle, s\u00f6ylendi\u011fi san\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi birka\u00e7 saatli\u011fine ka\u00e7amak maksad\u0131yla falan de\u011fil; aslanlar gibi, midye dolma e\u015fli\u011finde biralamak i\u00e7in. (Yasa gere\u011fi alkol\u00fcn zararl\u0131 oldu\u011funu an\u0131msatal\u0131m.)
\nHer \u015feyden \u00f6nce, midye i\u015fi ince i\u015ftir ki her midyenin eti yenmez. Kum midyesi olacak illa. \u0130skele midyesi olursa, demir emer tutundu\u011fu iskeledeki yerden. \u00c7ok derinden de \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olmayacak; yoksa deniz suyundaki t\u00fcm a\u011f\u0131r metalleri emmi\u015f olur ki, bunlar insan v\u00fccudundan at\u0131lamaz; insan \u00f6lene dek rahats\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u0131zd\u0131rab\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7eker durur alimallah. Midyenin makbul\u00fc, ak\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 bir kum yama\u00e7ta yeti\u015fenidir, bunu da bizzat aray\u0131p bulup \u00e7\u0131kartmak gerekir. As\u0131l \u00f6nemlisi ise, dolmas\u0131d\u0131r. Dolma k\u00f6t\u00fcyse, prin\u00e7 kalitesizse ne anlad\u0131m ben o midyeden, istiridyeden. O y\u00fczden der ki, has midyecilerin d\u00fcsturudur; \u201cMidye kad\u0131n gibidir, iyisini buldun mu, hemen orac\u0131kta \u2026 durmayacaks\u0131n neredeyse oraya gidip dal\u0131p \u00e7\u0131kartacaks\u0131n.\u201d
\nO g\u00fcn kar\u015f\u0131ya ge\u00e7mi\u015fler ve kasalarla midye \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 Kilitbahir Kalesi \u00f6nlerinden. Anaforlu ak\u0131nt\u0131n\u0131n \u015fiddeti y\u00fcz\u00fcnden oraya dalmak her babayi\u011fidin harc\u0131 de\u011fildir elbet ve bu y\u00fczden o midyelerin tad\u0131na doyum olmaz inatla. Hemen orac\u0131kta, \u00e7i\u011f \u00e7i\u011f. \u0130ki de limon s\u0131kt\u0131n m\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcne, de\u011fmeyin keyflere\u2026
\nNe \u0131l\u0131man meltem r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131n\u0131n getirdi\u011fi binbir \u00e7i\u00e7ek ve p\u0131t\u0131rc\u0131k kokular\u0131n\u0131 soluyup hissettikleri vard\u0131, ne de gelip ge\u00e7en bo\u015f tankerlerin v\u0131nlay\u0131p durup volan h\u0131r\u0131ldamalar\u0131n\u0131. Bir kasa bal\u0131ketine dolgun midyeyi, bo\u015f kabuklara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr\u00fcvermi\u015flerdi hemen orac\u0131kta.
\nKalan\u0131 da Barbaros tesislerine getirmi\u015fler, mutfa\u011f\u0131nda pi\u015firilsin, pilavla doldurulsun diye. Sonra gelsin buz biralar, gelsin sohbetlerin muhabbetlerin en alas\u0131, gelsin raam, gelsin i\u015fret. Zaman u\u00e7mu\u015f gitmi\u015f, kime ne gam. Bir daha m\u0131 gelinecek sanki bu hayata?… Allah a\u015fk\u0131na\u2026 \u201c\u2014Hadi \u015ferefe!…\u201d \u201c\u2014\u015eerefe mirim! En k\u00f6t\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz b\u00f6yle olsun\u2026\u201d
\nTam yedi kasa bira i\u00e7mi\u015fler o g\u00fcn, be\u015f ki\u015fi\u2026 Sonra d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f \u00f6tekiler; nas\u0131l olsa araba yook, trafik polisi derdi yook. Ama bizimki, bir arkada\u015f\u0131na rastlam\u0131\u015f Mersin\u2019den. Geleli beri hen\u00fcz bir bu\u00e7uk ay kadar oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in de kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131\u015flar \u00f6nceden. Nasipten \u00f6te k\u00f6y yok derler, o hesap i\u015fte. K\u0131smet o g\u00fcneymi\u015f belli ki.
\n\u201c\u2014Hi\u00e7 de\u011filse \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f kelime sohbet etmem gerekirdi, tersi yak\u0131\u015f\u0131ks\u0131z olurdu.\u201d dediyse de, as\u0131l maksad\u0131 apa\u00e7\u0131k belliydi; Mersin\u2019den, o\u011flundan ve di\u011fer aile efrad\u0131ndan haber almakt\u0131.
\n\u0130yi bir \u00e2\u015f\u0131k, tam bir Don Juan\u2019d\u0131 bizimki; o herc\u00fcmer\u00e7 i\u00e7inde bile cep telefonundan mesaj \u00e7ekmeyi ihmal etmemi\u015fti sevgilisine. Dahas\u0131, bizzat aray\u0131p konu\u015fmu\u015ftu bile. Ama ge\u00e7 kalaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve hatta nerede, kimlerle birlikte oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylememi\u015f\u2026 Ak\u015fam mesai \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131na yeti\u015fece\u011fini san\u0131yormu\u015f, yeti\u015firmi\u015f de normal ko\u015fullarda. Arkada\u015flar\u0131 ayr\u0131ld\u0131ktan bir iki sonraki motora binmi\u015f olsaym\u0131\u015f, problem \u00e7\u0131kmayacakm\u0131\u015f. Ama o \u00f6yle yapamam\u0131\u015f tabii. Sohbet uzam\u0131\u015f, yeni biralar a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. Eh, midye dolma da varm\u0131\u015f. Bo\u011faz midyesi bu, bir olur mu Mersin midyesiyle?! Konu\u015fmu\u015flar dereden tepeden d\u00fczden, Mersin\u2019den. \u201cYaramaz bir durum yok.\u201dmu\u015f. Yeniden kurulan sofrada bir tepsiye yak\u0131n midye daha yemi\u015fler \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc, o ve arkada\u015f\u0131 ile e\u015fi, bu son fas\u0131lda. \u0130\u00e7ilen biralar da ona g\u00f6re. Tutmu\u015f denize girmi\u015f bir de, hararet bast\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in. \u201cSaate bakt\u0131m, daha epeyce var. Denize girip, du\u015fumu al\u0131p hemen ayr\u0131lacakt\u0131m oradan. Ayr\u0131lsayd\u0131m, program\u0131m aksamayacak rahat rahat yeti\u015fecektim G\u00fcmr\u00fck Muhafaza\u2019ya.\u201d Belli ki, s\u0131k s\u0131k yaparm\u0131\u015f b\u00f6yle ka\u00e7amaklar\u2026
\n\u201c\u2014\u0130ndik sahile. Biraz kum futbolu oynad\u0131k. Herkesin \u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7\u0131plak bir bizimki g\u00f6mlekli. S\u0131r\u0131l s\u0131klam terledi, yine de \u00e7\u0131karmad\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcndeki beyaz g\u00f6mle\u011fi. Eh olur a, insanlar \u00e7e\u015fit \u00e7e\u015fit. Ben de ald\u0131rmam\u0131\u015f daha do\u011frusu fark etmemi\u015ftim bile ba\u015fta. Sonradan anlad\u0131m her \u015feyi\u2026
\nTop fasl\u0131 bitti, \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k iskeleye. Ben atlad\u0131m, e\u015fi atlad\u0131, bekliyorum g\u00f6mle\u011fini \u00e7\u0131karts\u0131n diye. Eh, g\u00f6mlekle de denize girecek de\u011fil herhalde. Bakt\u0131m, \u0131-\u0131\u0131h. \u00c7\u0131karmad\u0131. U\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 mayo i\u00e7ine iyice yerle\u015ftirip \u00f6ylece, \u00e7ivileme atlad\u0131 denize. Haydaaaa\u2026 Ne bu \u015fimdi?…
\nTesett\u00fcr desem, m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil askeriyede, olmaz. Unutmu\u015f desem, az sonra \u00e7\u0131kart\u0131r o halde.
\nSaate bakt\u0131m, h\u00e2l\u00e2 vakit var. Dur \u015fu i\u015fi bir anlayay\u0131m dedim kendi kendime, yanl\u0131\u015f insansa, sak\u0131ncal\u0131 bir durum varsa bo\u015funa g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeyeyim, birlikte g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyeyim \u00e7evrede.
\nDenize girmek, bir iki kula\u00e7 atmak iyi geldi; hararetimi kesmi\u015fti. Bakt\u0131m adam, g\u00f6mlekle du\u015f al\u0131yor. \u201c\u2014Sizin evde \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131r y\u0131kanmaz m\u0131 komutan? \u00c7ama\u015f\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fczde getirip denizde mi y\u0131kars\u0131n\u0131z b\u00f6yle?\u201d diye bir tak\u0131lay\u0131m dedim. Cevap vermedi, kem k\u00fcm etti.
\nEh, benim de ayr\u0131lma vaktim gelmi\u015fti. Ama orada b\u0131rak\u0131p gitsem konuyu, akl\u0131ma tak\u0131l\u0131r biliyorum kendimi yerim \u00f6\u011frenemezsem. Bir daha da nerede bulup soracam. Hem sorulmaz ki, b\u00f6yle \u015feyler. O y\u00fczden biraz daha kalay\u0131m dedim. Mazeret mi yok hatuna, motor ar\u0131zaland\u0131 kald\u0131k deniz ortas\u0131nda falan derim. Kim \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f yalandan\u2026
\n\u015eimdi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum da, iyi ki de kalm\u0131\u015f, s\u0131rr\u0131n cevab\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015fim o ak\u015fam. Daha ge\u00e7 olmadan\u2026\u201d
\n\u015eehir Kulub\u00fc\u2019nde bu sohbetin ge\u00e7ti\u011fi masadan birisi, belli etmeden garsona i\u015faret etti, \u201crak\u0131 getirme art\u0131k\u201d gibilerden, belli ki kapasite dolmak \u00fczereydi. Bir maraza falan \u00e7\u0131kmadan kalksalar iyi olacakt\u0131. Sohbet art\u0131k monologa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, anlatan \u00e7evresine bakmadan ard\u0131 ard\u0131 ard\u0131na konu\u015fuyor, daldan dala atl\u0131yordu. Konu da\u011f\u0131lmak \u00fczereydi. Sesi de iyiden iyiye \u00e7atalla\u015fm\u0131\u015f, genizden derinlerden \u00e7\u0131kmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fsa, \u201cDur, i\u00e7me art\u0131k!\u201d deme zaman\u0131 gelmi\u015f demekti. Ama, bizimkinin b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcp, fark edip kavrayacak hali yoktu. Bakt\u0131, \u00f6n\u00fcndeki bardak bo\u015f. Uzand\u0131 ald\u0131 bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131nkini, fon dip, bitirdi tek yudumda.
\n\u201c\u2014Ne diyordum? Hah. Ben dedim, ayr\u0131lmadan birer kahve i\u00e7elim diye. Oturduk bir kameriye alt\u0131na. Direk sorsam, adam ka\u00e7acak yine. S\u00f6z\u00fc doland\u0131rsam, bu sefer de \u00e7akacak vaziyeti. Kahveler geldi, ilk yudumlar\u0131 i\u00e7mi\u015ftik ki, punduna getirip ben s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131verdim g\u00f6mle\u011fi. Aman Tanr\u0131\u2019m!… Amman Tanr\u0131\u2019m o ne s\u0131rtt\u0131 \u00f6yle.
\nHay elim k\u0131r\u0131layd\u0131 da a\u00e7masayd\u0131m g\u00f6mle\u011fi. Hay yer yar\u0131layd\u0131 da girseydim i\u00e7ine. Nas\u0131l utand\u0131m ama nas\u0131l… S\u0131rt, o s\u0131rt…\u201d
\nUzand\u0131 ald\u0131 masadaki t\u00fcm bardaklar\u0131, bir tanesinin i\u00e7ine d\u00f6kt\u00fc hepsini ve yutkunmadan, nefes almadan dikti…
\nSonra kald\u0131rd\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 masadakilere bakt\u0131 tek tek. G\u00f6zleri kaym\u0131\u015ft\u0131. K\u0131rp\u0131\u015f k\u0131rp\u0131\u015ft\u0131, s\u00fczd\u00fc her birini. \u201c\u2014Siz hi\u00e7biriniz g\u00f6rmemi\u015finizdir b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey, asla ya\u015famam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r.\u201d Yan masadakiler bile konu\u015fmuyordu, o i\u00e7ki ortam\u0131nda, konu\u015fmak bir yana \u00e7\u0131t \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yordu…
\n\u201c\u2014Adam\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131, adam\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131… Kan revan i\u00e7inde… Li\u011fme li\u011fme, \u00e7\u0131z\u0131k \u00e7\u0131z\u0131k… Allah\u2019\u0131m o nas\u0131l sevi\u015fme… Her yan\u0131… Kimi kabuk ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f, kimi yar\u0131 kanl\u0131…\u201d
\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yeniden kald\u0131rd\u0131, dik dik \u00f6fkeyle bakt\u0131 masadakilere. \u201c\u2014Hey yavrum hey! Bo\u015fa ya\u015f\u0131yoz hepimiz bo\u015fa!…\u201d sonra d\u00f6nd\u00fc di\u011fer masadakilere, kad\u0131nlar\u0131 atlay\u0131p erkekleri i\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131yla tarad\u0131 tek tek… \u201c\u2014Sen de, sen de, sen de!…\u201d En son g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne vurmaya ba\u015flad\u0131, \u201c\u2014Ben de, ben de, ben de… Ne ister erkek kad\u0131ndan? Salonda hamfendi, mutfakta a\u015f\u00e7\u0131, (\u2026) de\u011fil mi? Ama gel g\u00f6r ki, bizimki her yerde hamfendi. So\u011fan keser, nerdeyse \u00f6z\u00fcr dileyecek. Limon s\u0131kacak salataya, \u2018Af edersiniz, \u00fczerinize biraz limon s\u0131kabilir miyim acaba?\u2019 Yeter be, yeter! Ben istemiyom \u00f6ylesini, ben de istiyom t\u0131rnaklas\u0131n, \u00e7\u0131rmaklas\u0131n beni, eritsin, bitirsin. G\u00f6mlekle gir…\u201d
\n\u00c7oktan karga tulumba kald\u0131rm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 masadan, kucaktayken s\u00f6yledi o son s\u00f6zleri. Sonra g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcp asfalt\u0131n \u00f6te yan\u0131ndan att\u0131lar denize. Ay\u0131ls\u0131n kendine gelsin diye. Kordonda y\u00fcr\u00fcyenlerden k\u0131k\u0131rd\u0131yanlar, g\u00fclenler oldu.
\nSo\u011fuk suyu yeyince kalkt\u0131 dikildi suyun i\u00e7inde. Ellerini bele dayay\u0131p \u015f\u00f6yle bir bakt\u0131. Sonra z\u0131plad\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 asfalta. Hi\u00e7 kimseye hi\u00e7bir\u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden, ard\u0131nda \u0131slak izler b\u0131raka b\u0131raka uzakla\u015ft\u0131 ayd\u0131nl\u0131k yolda, az sonra karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde kayboldu. Bir daha da hi\u00e7 g\u00f6r\u00fcnmedi. \u0130stanbul\u2019a gitti\u011fi s\u00f6ylendi…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k dedi\u011fin \u00c7anakkale\u2019de bir \u2026 G\u00f6mlek Hayli yap\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. K\u0131saca boyluydu ve omuzlar\u0131 neredeyse boyu kadar geni\u015fti. Su Alt\u0131 Taarruz timinde g\u00f6revliydi, yahut asl\u0131nda Su Alt\u0131 Savunma timinde ve \u00e7evresine \u00f6yle diyerek hava at\u0131yordu. Belki de s\u0131radan bir askeri dalg\u0131\u00e7t\u0131 sadece. Her neyse\u2026 \u0130lk g\u00f6rev yeri Mersin\u2019di. Mersin\u2019den gelmi\u015fti \u00c7anakkale\u2019ye. Orada evlenmi\u015f ve orada bo\u015fanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131; bir […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1425,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-265","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-genel"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/265","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1425"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=265"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/265\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=265"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=265"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.metu.edu.tr\/caglart\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=265"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}